It’s ok to feel down.
It’s ok to have negative feelings and thoughts.
It’s ok to want to be on your own, to not want to meet people, to not feeling jolly an merry all the time.
It’s ok to want a break. It’s also ok to take a break.
None of those things make you any less normal, any less capable, any less worth.
You are never alone. And reaching out is a great way to be reminded of that.